the elusive sleep.

I got 1.5 hours of sleep this morning. Disjointed, interrupted, terrible sleep. I didn't sleep at all the night before. The head wouldn't turn off. S got about 2.5 hours after going to bed at 4ish-am.

Here we are at 2:15am. I'm awake. I can't tell if I'm fighting the Valium that I took or the 45 minutes that it's been in my system isn't long enough. (I've never had one before.)
I was instructed to take it with a cocktail. (Not a doctor's recommendation...)

Whatever.

Could also be the big gaping hole of empty white sheet next to me for the first time in I can't remember how long.
Not even the mongrel is snuggling anymore. He's found his place at the foot of the bed where all the down covers are.

Happy Monday.



And now, back to Dancing with the Stars.
(I'm fairly certain that Pamela Anderson can do no wrong on this show.)

summertime.

Why does it always take so long for me to post new shit on my blog?
Well, it's been a month since my little incident with the asphalt and my arm still isn't onehundredpercent. It seems to be mostly better but I still get shocks of pain occasionally.
It just needs to be better before June. It doesn't have a choice in this matter. I HAVE to be able to go to Alaska. When am I going to get an opportunity like this again?

I can't wait to be in the freezing Alaskan waters for two whole months. Feeling that sea spray me while I'm hailing lines in. Knowing that I more resemble one of the bears on shore then a southern california summertime girl. Ugh. I can't wait.
The guys I'll be going with are truly awesome. My friend Sean just found out that he's going to have his own boat for the summer so he's really excited. We'll be fishing the same grounds as his boat too so I'll get to hang out with him on the off days.
Chignik, you better get ready for this California girl!


On another note, I'm really looking forward to this weekend. I want to be a huge de-stresser for S and make it a nice relaxing one. We're having dinner at my mum's house tonight with a bunch of friends. And then tomorrow, my roommate and I are throwing a little shindig for the little birthday girl who's turning three! Sophie.....get ready for doggie ice cream!!
Sunday, I'm sure, you'll be able to find us poolside at the Ace.

Summertime is just about here. I can feel it.